김윤아의 노래에 있던 말이던가... 하지만 요즘의 나에게는 너무나도 정확한 말. Anxiety has been eating me up....... 글쓰기에 대한 회피와 결합해서 그것만이 유일한 생각할 거리이기 때문에 더 그런 거겠지.
먼저 가장 중요한 건 ###집밖으로 나오는 일###
- 일을 하든, 잠을 자든 무조건 연구실에 가기
- 이사 뒤에는 자전거를 탈 수 있어!!!
- 점심은 오힐에서든, 코너에서든, Fontaine에서든 food of all nations에서든 사먹기
- 저녁에는 꼭 운동하기
- 제 때 자기
I am sorry, Nangyi! I feel I didn't succeed in protecting you as I had not in protecting myself and my family.......
# The lessons of this event:
- Just do whatever you want to do
- Don't let anxiety make a decision for you.
# I would like to run away and disappear from everything. But I can't as I know going back to Korea will makes me more depressed and more anxious. And I have nowhere to go. Rather than letting anxiety dominate my mind, try to overcome it. It's just a illusion of mind. Think about why I have been unhappy for the last few months. Things that happened to me? No, actually nothing happened. Just concern and uncertainty of the future - a creation of mind - have been destroying me.
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